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I used to love going to hip hop gigs. Yes, used to. I know this is weird coming out from someone who will be running a hip hop gig himself this coming Sunday. But, really, it's been awhile since I last enjoyed myself in a live.

I'm not sure what's wrong. Half the time I would be blaming the lightings, sound, venue, and the other half, the performers themselves. But when I reflect back, there's really nothing wrong. When I was enjoying myself back then, sometimes, there's no proper lighting, sound system sounds like crap and in a sitting venue - but I still enjoyed myself. The performers are the same, so what's really the issue?

I don't know. But it's me. not them. Maybe because I know the players to the game a bit too much or maybe they've left a impression on me that even when I see them performing or just doing their thing on the sound system, organizing a show, etc, I would have something against or pro to them. It's like there's this subconscious feeling that's affecting my mood. each and every time.

This is affecting how I feel everyday. Hip Hop has been with me since I was primary 6 and I never thought of letting it go until recently. My life is equal to my Family & Hip Hop (Divine-Aura). Even majority of my friends are from that circle! And everybody knows, having friends in the Hip Hop circle is different. They're the shittiest people ever. Because everybody is trying to have this 'appeal', no one will talk to you unless you're somebody. That's how shitty it is. But I still do have some people whom I still appreciate dearly, people from Divine-Aura and the KL peoples are great. I enjoy their company very much and that's basically about it.

That's what keeping me going - not our friendship - but how we get together and just enjoy each other company. This is Hip Hop to me right now. Live gigs, soundclicks, myspace, keystyling, etc are slightly irrelevant to me. It's been awhile since I enjoy any of those.

So till Hiphopers decide to be nice to themselves and others, the essence will always be irrelevant to me. I would still prefer to bump to the music I enjoyed for the past 8 years and not look forward to anything and just keep doing my thing, solely for others who're open for unity.

That's what Hip Hop is to me right now just like a ex-lover whom you think about most of time and do silly things just to get her attention.