Got up early, pack my bags and off I go to the reservoir. Find a good spot, put together my rod, tie my knots, fix my bait and cast my line. Get back to my seat, look over the calm waters, gaze at the beautiful rising sun and wait.
Now what? Like how people usually do; I was expecting a huge fish (preferably a snakehead, toman) to bite my bait, sending my reel spinning and rod twitching but that turns out to be tiring. Expecting an ideal outcome while doing absolutely nothing is tiring and boring.
But. Luckily, I pack with me one of my all time favorite book, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. Flip to my favorite chapter and I was in Andalusia, reading the life of a dreaming shepherd. But that turns out to be exhausting, it just doesn't feel good. Makes me feel out of place. Maybe dusty Sahara wasn't exactly the right atmosphere I'm trying to dive in while waiting.
There was just too many 'but's and sometimes I wish I can just 'let the day flow' without expecting anything or feeling anything. Just let it flow; think about or do anything but still you're in a greater peace. I only achieved that peace for only about 15 minutes during the day, other than that I'm always bothered by other little happenings or thoughts and I invested too much feeling into those short moments thus dragging myself into a bigger and straggling nuisence in my day. =\
Next weekend, it's back to fishing for me.
Last week I went to visit my local barber. That's right; long hair days are over, it's back to the feel-good, airy and short hair cut. I think it makes me look younger. Not that I'm that old but uh, I look old. That sucks.
So. The barber. I love going to the local neighborhood barber/cybercafe, there's always someone strange to meet. Someone new who will definitely inject you with some weird perception or ideas. On that day, there wasn't a lot of people there. Just four, three of them are the staff themselves. I remember one of them, he was the one who was reading a book about Wali Songo when I patronize that shop ages ago. I find that to be quite interesting. I love sufi subjects. I love meeting people who are interested in sufi subjects.
The fourth guy doesn't look very good. He's a chinese guy, probably in the 40s range. He looked lost. He's holding to a old and dusty looking suitcase and every few minutes he'll trouble the staff there to use the computer inside to check his email or send a fax somewhere. According to the barber there, he's been there for like half of the day, doing the same thing. He looked like someone who is going through very, very tough times.
I thought I was living in a miserable life but when I look at that guy, someone who possibly is married but looks like he doesn't have anywhere to return to. That's more miserable. Makes me derieve to yet another perception; there's always someone else more miserable and I should look at the bright side of life.
Well, just another barber shop experience.
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"My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind." - Albert Einstein
What's up 2009.
Some good and bad things happened but I've walked through a adventurous journey and Alhamdullilah, I'm glad I could pass by 2008 feeling that I've come a step closer to finding the meaning and purpose of my life.
Alhamdullilah, I still have a good sense of motivation for my passion and ambition.
InshaAllah, to my constant doa to be a muslim equipped with strong iman and taqwa.
InshaAllah, to my constant doa to be a humble muslim equipped with patience and honesty.
Lailahaill'Allah - Tiada yang nyata selain Allah subhana watallah.
InshaAllah, I'll always remember that I'm nothing without you, Ya Allah.
May 2009 be a good one to all of you people.
